Let me start off by describing myself a little bit. I love to KNOW things… if you know what I mean; I just enjoy understanding everything and anything. I mean, there exist times when I’m sure that something is far out of my comprehensible league, and I leave it at that. But more than anything, I wish to understand it… if only every little idea or cognitive process would inherit reason within my mind. I would love more than anything to understand everything that came my way. Yet, I don’t know for sure if that would be the best thing for me…I believe that there are things that weren’t supposed to be understood, of course and most obviously, the concept of a holy ghost (spirit). What really is it? Science doesn’t have a definition, and neither do we. Does it have a physical composition? If not, what determines the limits of space/time upon a non-physical being? The dimensions of space no longer apply, since in itself there is no space, and therefore cannot exist within a physical realm. But it certainly can exist…
You see? I did it right there… I took something which I really have no comprehension, tried to wrap my tiny brain around it, and came up with an internally mental compromise. I exemplified a conceptual theory, and used that to avoid the fact that I honestly have no understanding of it. At least I’m getting somewhere by admitting this, haha.
There have been numerous times in my life (more recently) where I just wish that I didn’t get IT as much. Along with knowledge, wisdom, intellect, comes great distress. As soon as I read the first sentence in Ecclesiastes, I fell in love. I can honestly say that it is my favorite book of ALL-TIME. I read it straight through, and multiple times over. And I still love reading it to this day. “For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.” –Ecclesiastes 1:18 LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! Somebody asked me once, “why do you like it so much?” And I thought about it… “Probably because of how relevant it is to ME, you have no idea what this means to me. I think about this stuff all the time. It is the driving force behind wanting to BE somebody, to DO something different, to be a tool of God above all else… because then my life can gain meaning.” These values I hold the highest… and I’ve realized that when I remember the words of Ecclesiastes, I understand things… I understand misunderstanding… I understand my ignorance. It’s comforting, and it makes me smile.
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Even after reading through Ecclesiastes, I still strive every day to increase my wisdom and knowledge. I know that my sadness will only grow and grow… yet I still do it. There is just something about LEARNING that kills me, I love it so much. Maybe that is my downfall… but I feel like here’s my wisdom= .01% There is so much out there… so much left to study, and so much left that hasn’t even been touched upon yet. There is so much… AHHHH!!! It makes me cringe and squirm just thinking about the possibilities.
A little quote from some poetry that I wrote a few weeks ago= Nothing is like truth, this truth we find through an analytical proof. Yet what makes this proof truth? We must have a proof to determine that the ways in which we are analyzing truth are in fact true. And we find that you must have one in order to find the other. So there is no basic truth underlying everything we have ever experienced, thought of, and observed… there is only our faith.
That last line enraptures my thinking. Whatever it is that we can conjure out of our tiny understanding, what do we have to back it up in the end? Nothing but our own FAITH that what we are saying, that what we are breathing, is true. Faith… mmmhmm mmhm mhm Good! It’s comforting to know that God doesn’t care about whether or not it makes sense… he only cares that we believe. He trusts us that much, to throw ourselves around ignorantly at what ever we think is correct. Hah… He gives us too much credit.
Now… the concept of ignorance is bliss becomes very intriguing. The terms “ignorance” and “bliss” must first be defined, and even the State of Being (SOB) verb “is.” Ignorance- The state of a lack of knowledge or understanding. Bliss- A state of happiness, joy, understanding, or satisfaction. Is- Third person singular form of “to be.” So it could be said, “I am ignorant to be joyful.” There exist many loopholes that one could find within the words and their intended meaning placed together. But we may discern that, if someone happens to be intending their ignorance, they strive to achieve peace or satisfaction. So honestly, where does the credibility lie in insulting a person with the word “ignorant?” Of course, perhaps they aren’t intending their ignorance, perhaps it is just a part of who they are. But wait! Then they really must be satisfied and at peace! Right? Then they are TRULY ignorant and must honestly be TRULY blissful. But we know better than that, ignorance really doesn’t imply satisfaction or bliss. And it certainly doesn’t equal satisfaction or bliss. And therefore, in this sense, the statement “Ignorance is bliss” is inherently false. Another idea… what was the definition of bliss? Understanding? How is this possible? Ignorance is most definitely a LACK of understanding. Yet bliss IS understanding and satisfaction. They cannot go together, so we have to rule out that Bliss means understanding. I just presented a logical proof to provide evidence that bliss cannot mean understanding, out of a linguistic loophole (haha). So our own amazing language has become a tool for logically disproving a conceptual theory. You can do so much with it, but where do we stand without it? Life without language… Now there is something to dwell upon. If we have a LACK of understanding for communication(language) then we should be pretty pleasant people, no? I imagine that things would go either way, pleasant, or very unpleasant.
If you hadn’t noticed… Bliss’ real definition mentions nothing of understanding. I only added that in there to explore an idea, and to explore logical reasoning and transition to my next point.
I guess what I want to say is… I’m a fool for trying to increase my wisdom/knowledge. I understand that and I guess I don’t care… Everything is vanity, right? That is very depressing. But it is so true. It is how we were meant to be. God made us this way. Uber-vain creatures who curse the one who made them. Yet I believe that HE understands this more than any of us ever could, and as long as I hold that little bit of knowledge, I will be able to overcome my own vanity in light of the will of God. He’s got my back, no matter what :-D
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